11/14/2025
Well, it's that time of year again. It has been 5 years since our world was shattered, and you went silent. The weeks and days leading up to your birthday, it was hard to sleep because in my mind I was wondering where you would be and what you would be doing if you were here. I miss our talks, your voice, laugh, and smell. I miss hearing you call me "mom dukes" or "maa" when you wanted something.
Today you would have been 30 years old. A whole new chapter of life you never got the chance to step into, and a chapter I’ll always wonder about. I imagine the man you would have grown into, the dreams you would have chased, the jokes you would have cracked, and the hugs you would have given. I imagine the sound of your laughter filling a room, the way your presence could shift the whole atmosphere, and the way you always found a way to make me smile—even on my hardest days.
There is an ache that never leaves, but there is also a love that never fades. I carry you with me in every sunrise, every quiet moment, every memory that still makes me laugh through the tears. You are still my baby. You are still my heart. And you will always be deeply loved.
Happy Heavenly 30th Birthday, my son.
I hope you can feel the love that stretches from earth to heaven and right back to me again.
Until I see you again. Love Mom♥️🖤