29/05/2026
Hey guys, Nico here.
This week in RAW&REAL Iāll be introducing myself and giving you a glimpse into my life
Some of you have heard my story at TOLās 'Check In Not Out' Fringe show and some of you are hearing it for the first time
I've been struggling with my mental health since I was about 7.
I've tried a lot of things since then; some worked, most didn't. The skills that stuck with me are the ones that worked and they have gotten me through some really dark times.
Recovery takes time, and it's not linear.
This segment is called RAW&REAL so I'll be honestā¦Lately, I've found myself struggling with a lot of fear and grief. Fear of what comes next, and grief about what has been.
I think about the time I wasted, and I carry grief. Missing the person I was and wondering about the person I could have been had things been different.
On the other hand, I think about how much time I have left, and I have a deep fear of the unknown. I feel stuck between thinking I am not doing enough and worrying that I have taken on more than I can handle.
In times like these, I find it easy to fall into the lies my head makes up, but I know that isn't the right place for me to be.
While it's normal to struggle, and I know that my fears are widely shared amongst many people, I also know that allowing it to consume me is not healthy.
So, I talk about it, I write about it, and I take the steps I need to move forward. Fear is natural. I have experienced a lot of it over the years.
The time I am scared of will pass anyway, so I have two options. I can do the things that scare me and become what I have always wanted, or I can let it eat me alive.
That is probably the biggest thing I have learned in my journey. I have to choose to do better, to be better. To have the choice is a privilege.
All in all, things are going well for me. I have an incredible support system around me, and I know exactly how to support myself through these thoughts.
While I am scared of everything that could go wrong, I am so excited about everything that could go right. I'm going to take the leap of faith, knowing if I fall, I will be caught.
This is your reminder that life is going to be hard sometimes. Itās not always fair, and sometimes it's difficult to know what to do next. But there is always someone there, willing to listen and to hold the space you need.
Hard times It will pass, and the hard times will become a memory and you will get up, look back and be so proud of yourself for making it to the other side. Every light that is off can be turned back on. Keep fighting and reach out for support because youāll be surprised at how many people are willing to help! You never, ever, have to do this by yourself.
So yeah, that's where Iām at. Thank you for taking the time to listen to me. I will be passing the baton to Montanah for your next instalment of RAW&REAL.
See you in the next one !
Nico š«¶