20/03/2021
SUCCESSFUL STORIES TO PROMOTE HIV & AIDS PROGRAMS IN PAPUA NEW GUINEA.
Total of 5 testimonies
2. HIV-Positive Grade 9 student
Learning that you are HIV-positive can be one of the most difficult experiences you go through in life. You may feel scared, sad or even angry – this is good, and a completely natural part of coping with something that can be life changing.
But remember, HIV doesn’t have to stop you living a long, happy and fulfilling life. With the right treatment and support, it is possible to live as long as the average person.
There are a lot of misconceptions about what it means to be living with HIV. Ultimately, everyone’s lives are different – how you cope with your diagnosis and how you move forward will be unique.
Roslyn who turned 17 years old last year (2020), hails from Oro and Gulf Provinces. She is currently living with her care giver (not her biological parents) at Hohola One, in Port Moresby, National Capital District (NCD) of Papua New Guinea. She is now doing her Grade Nine in one of the Secondary Schools in NCD with a pretty and healthy-looking appearance.
At the age of five, Roslyn was admitted for TB treatment. Whilst she was on her sick bed, Roslyn was told by her clinician that her HIV test result turned out positive. Being a small girl at that age, she was unable to understand the disease and its likely symptoms. She thought she was only down with TB and not HIV.
Roslyn was registered at 9 Mile Well Baby Clinic and when she turned 15, she was transferred to Heduru Adult Clinic. Roslyn’s care giver later decided to re-transfer her to Anglicare PNG for Roslyn’s convenience.
Unlike many other adolescent girls who have encountered blame for their infections by their families, Roslyn said her care giver is a strong mother who persevered to look after her without labelling Roselyn with disparaging words such as useless, rubbish, etcetera. “My care giver knows it is not my fault that I am positive. It is only me who tried to blame myself” Said Roslyn. “I am a grown-up teenager and began putting on my adult thinking cap not to play the blame game but to find a way out so I enjoy my life as everyone else,” added Roslyn.
It is likely that the ongoing impacts and rhetoric of blame from and about oneself will have negative ongoing emotional impacts as well as diverse impacts on treatment adherence and treatment outcomes in fairly longer term.
So, the message here is for the People Living with HIV (PLWHIV) and the care givers to move away from blame games and instead encourage PLWHIV’s to adhere to their treatment so we see the outcome of their treatment as the change we envisaged to see.
The familial support comes in a number of different, but important ways including food, financial support as well as encouragement.
When Roselyn was asked about the public knowing her status, she said no one knew about her status but only her care giver. She was less faced with outside stigma and discrimination but the only thing which she is fighting to overcome is the self-stigma and discrimination. She said that the self-stigmatization and discrimination is when you develop negative thoughts about yourself. “I often heard my inner voice talking to me to remain positive when these negative thoughts come into my mind,” Roslyn explained. “I often cried because I thought there was no one by my side worried about my socialization and appearance in front of my colleagues, friends and community at large. I think and think and think but when I see the look on her (care giver’s) face, I regain my strength and happiness, I feel the hope”, stated Roslyn.
“When I was growing up and started to learn about my status and HIV as a disease, I reset my mind and told myself to remain positive, be faithful on ART and accept my status. I am not the only one in the World or PNG with the virus so I will quarrel and worry all day. NO! It is not my fault that I contracted the virus, yet I do not have the tendency to blame my mother who transmitted it to me”. Roslyn sympathetically explained. “ART is now available and it is a green-shoot of hope for such People Living With HIV/AIDS to live a quality life moving forward. Roslyn reiterated.
When asked about whether she was once declared a lost-to-follow-up on ART, Roslyn replied yes. “When I am busy with school, I have inconsistent schedule with my ART hence, my viral load has gone up and on one moment I was very sick and lost my weight. My care giver realized that and brought me back to ART.
When she was put back on ART, she regained her weight and recovered from the ill-feelings that she had encountered while not on ART. “I realized how effective ART impacted on my health despite the co-morbidity I lived with”, Roslyn said.
It should be well understood that failure to adhere does not mean a person stops treatment forever or even for a long time. It is only about missing few doses. “Even though I was under other pressures at home and at school but my biggest fear was failing my new treatment”, said Roslyn.
Adherence to treatment resulted in restored health of being normal again. Having commenced life treatment again had adverse effects and among many effects was the restoring of lives especially in body and mind.
“The new feeling that I have after being put back to treatment is normal. I feel the same as any negative person. I concentrated in my studies and participated in teamwork and I have nothing to worry about. I am a normal person. I love my classmates, teachers, friends, families and my mother (care giver),” said Roselyn.
Being a teenager, a critical question for Roselyn as a seventeen-year-old girl was her relationship and marriage life. She affirmed and remained positive that she has a brighter future because of what she is doing at present (Taking ART). “The future is only the reflection of today’s decision. You act now or never”, she said.
Many girls and young women reflected on intimate matters relating to s*x, marriage and reproductive desires. As young people in their reproductive years, the concern of marriage is one critical decision to be made. While some desired these relationships, others feared them. It is obvious that for those girls and young women who are recently initiated to ART, they were afraid to make marriage decisions compared to those who have been on treatment for longer. Roslyn is no exception. She is looking forward to have a happy life in the future. Where it matters, she is fit and well to look after her own children the same as negative mothers.
So as explained above on the recent taking of ART and early taking of ART, the possible inference is that the longer you being on ART or faithfulness to ART strengthened your s*x and marriage decisions.
Papua New Guinea is a Christian Country; therefore, Religion has long been described as important in HIV narratives, particularly those living with HIV/AIDS. Prayer, faith and God provides space for spiritual and mental comfort, acceptance, support to remain adherent and guidance for behavioral change.
Prayer also provided a means for families to actively support and seek healing and wellbeing for their daughters and sisters with HIV.
Roslyn stated that, God provides for her daily needs. “He is a giver, a provider and always protect me. It is unanimously a practice when we are faced up with problems and dilemma’s, we turn to our heavenly father to show us the way out of our problems”.
Roslyn extends her thanks firstly to the Heavenly Father for the life He has given her, the Government of Papua New Guinea for the free ART medicine to all People Living with HIV around the country, National AIDS Council Secretariat for giving her the opportunity to share her experiences and lastly to her care giver, for the day-to-day support.
HIV doesn’t have to stop you living a long, happy and fulfilling life. With the right treatment and support, it is possible to live as long as the average person!