04/27/2023
As a child, I watched my Mother desperately trying to find love and acceptance. Unfortunately, the company she kept lead to some really bad decisions. Although, my sibling and I were being neglected and abused in many ways, it was hard to watch her be so broken. IT is really easy to become angry at her for the things that have happened to us. I have found that loving her from a distance is the healthiest way to deal with the complicated feelings. Love has always been a very difficult emotion for me. However, I have reached a healing era in my life. I have set boundaries with the people around me…family, friends, etc. I have learned to know what healthy love looks like with family and relationships. I am thankful for my journey because ultimately it has helped me help others. One message I preach to people is be kind. It’s really not hard to be nice. We have no idea how much our actions or words affects other. Positive or negative, it makes big impacts. Thankfully, I had several adults (not related to me) in life that provided that positive support that gave me some confidence to fight for myself. When I became a Mom, it changed my life forever. My child has taught me more about love, life and the simple things in life. Every action I take, I consider the impact that it could make on my child. Use your trauma or lessons in life to improve your situations and fight for the things you want in life! I pray for my Mother just about every night because I only know of the battles I seen as a child but I know there are things I will never know. I am thankful we live in the present time where our children get to have a voice. We have advocacy groups, special investigators and new laws that allow people to fight for them. I am curious to how our current generation of children will proceed as adults. I feel hopeful about their futures because of all the wonderful people that are fighting for their rights!