Honoring Hazel Grace Carranza

02/19/2019

This Friday will be 9 weeks since my heart stopped beating..... i miss Hazel more than all the words in all the world could ever express. Every day i wake up...i forget for just a moment that Hazel's not here....and every day i have to remind myself again and again. That this is actually real. No matter how long i stare out the window and wait....shes never coming home. 831 Hazel Grace. I cant wait until i am with you again, my love.

02/19/2019

The altar, pictures and paraphernalia of Hazel's in our bedroom where she passed away 21Dec2018. RIP my love of my life.

02/08/2019

Thank you all for your continued prayers, love and support through my family's tremendous loss. Such a tiny person, so small for her age, has left a hole of an imaginable size in our hearts. There are moments where i am so overwhelmed with grief i can almost feel it literally consuming me from the inside ...as if a black hole just inexplicably forms at my center, engulfing all that is me.
And then there are times when i feel immense gratitude for having her at all, no matter how long or short. I look at the dozens of photos of her smiling and laughing, even when her mind is riddled with pain and trapped in a body she has no control over. Yet she smiled. And she laughed. That was my little girl. And im the only one in this whole wide world that got to be her mother. I am truly blessed. And i have my very own guardian angel to prove it 💙❤💜💚💛 thank you for hearing Hazel's story.

02/03/2019

Hazel was mercy flown to PDX from Medford 15Nov2018. She was released onto Hospice care and sent home 19Dec2018. She passed away at home two nights

05/01/2018

more and more evidence that Hazel is one of these 'victims of circumstance'........this is just wrong you guys....

The water at or around 126 military installations contains potentially harmful levels of perfluorinated compounds, which have been linked to cancers and developmental delays for fetuses and infants.

04/04/2018

Hazel's 2nd Rifing Appointment is today!!! Huzzah! Her 1st session was only 4 mins long but we saw immediate results that lasted throughout the weekend!! She had far less 'shaking', hyper-extension of her arms and legs, and teeth grinding than usual! She also slept much better and for longer intervals and seemed to be in an all around better mood! We are so grateful and blessed to have found this type of therapy for her!
Thank you all for your prayers, donations, and sharing of Hazel's story! Our family is TRULY grateful to you all.

From something sad and terrible to something beautiful and inspiring. I never would have known first hand just how wonderful my fellow human beings are unless Hazel was sick. All things we experience are by our own choosing. Suffering emotionally is a perspective.. All things have meaning in life even the things we consider 'bad'. The 'bad' things are merely challenges. Challenges that you are capable of overcoming should you choose it.
I have thought long and hard about this concept, especially since the emergence of Hazel's disorders. I used to be very sad about her health and condition. I used to wonder 'why her?', 'why me?', 'why my family?'. Until one day I realized that being sad was never going to benefit me. Or my eldest daughter Bella. Or my husband. But most of all it wasn't going to help my sick little Hazel Grace.
So i did research and found other parents who are veterans with sick babies and children. I found that other people suffer everyday just as I did. Just as my baby did. I found connection in that suffering and turned it into hope.
I knew that I was strong enough to lead this march. To stand for Hazel and all of the sick children born to Iraqi Freedom veterans (and any sick children). To speak out when I see injustice and to not let my voice quaver.
but I can not stand alone. I need others to stand with me. I am only one person but together we are unstoppable.
Thank you all for your kindness and compassion. it will never be forgotten

03/23/2018

We have reached $2000, 1,322 GFM page visits and 198 FB shares!!!! All of this in just a months time! I couldn't have asked for a greater birthday present! Thank you all so much for your love, prayers and compassion that you have shown our baby girl. And thank you to those who have thanked us for our service. We appreciate you fully understanding the breadth of our sacrifice....my family is forever grateful!

03/23/2018

Hazel has her first Rifing appointment Next Wed!!! SO excited! We will keep you posted as she continues it...

03/09/2018

We are up to $1700, 1086 GFM page visits and 150 FB shares! Truly blessed!

03/08/2018

These are photos (having trouble uploading Vids) of Hazel working out doing her physical therapy stuff to help her build up her muscles and be a buff little girl :) She tries SO hard. She is MY hero, definitely.

03/07/2018

I will be posting videos today of Hazel doing PT and 'talking'... she is trying so hard everyday, gang....such a blessing to have such an enormously strong willed and beautifully grateful child. Hazel doesn't need a lot, she just wants to be with us wherever we are and whatever we are doing. She smiles at me when we lock eyes and I make my 'surprised' face, and this smile you guys....melting my heart doesn't even begin to describe it. I never knew I could love another human being as much as i love my, Hazel Grace. Thank you all for sharing her story, sending her blessings and prayers and donating money so that we can get her to a place of healing. thank you will never be enough.