Exposing Agape Boarding School

03/25/2024

I'm deleting the Healing With Spare The Rod group end of day. Nobody uses this anymore and frankly I'm starting to wonder if all my time sharing tips and tricks to help people with their mental health has been a waist. People aren't using this space to help each other and thats what I had hoped to inspire. Hopefully some of you got some benefit from it early on, but I just don't feel like its doing anything anymore nor do I feel very inspired to continue to try and motivate people to care about their mental health if they are going to be so stubbornly ignorant and inactive. People have to want help. They have to want change. If they don't want to heal then all the talking about it in the world won't do a damn thing.

03/14/2024

Some people have expressed a little frustration that I'm not covering or investigating and related programs in . Few reasons for that.

1) is never going to change. It will only get worse. Its maddening.

2) Fellow alumni decided to be simps and follow Amanda and bully me to impress her. This got extreme to where I couldn't do my work and was being harassed by up to a half dozen people a day on multiple platforms. I stopped making videos because they would pick them apart.

3) I was essentially cut out of the sausage making of the bill in by Amanda and Allen Knoll so they could compromise with the enemy and poke holes in the legislation, holes that proved to do exactly what I said they would later making it impossible to enforce the law.

4) I was then smeared to huge newspapers and lawmakers and left out of documentaries, interviews, when I was the primary person that pushed so many people to start coming forward in the first place. My efforts stretch back to 2004 and 2005, long before almost anyone else.

5) I got sick of being bullied, left out of the other stuff by sexist women, who sit around and talk s**t about men all day and think thats ok in a group of mixed activists. I couldn't relate to my piers from Agape and after awhile writing and doing things alone takes its toll.

So I've been less engaged. I still post but tbh is and we did it not through crappy watered down compromised legislation with loopholes in it but by constantly keeping them in the media spotlight and constantly pressuring officials for 4 solid years.

is meaningless without . Talk is cheap. The talk of politicians is worthless without actions to back it up. Even some of the laws we passed here in are not being enforced properly or at all and its very disappointing to like me.

It feels like you can fight and fight for change and talk and talk to raise awareness but in the end nothing ever really does change does it?

So I'll finish polishing up and republishing my 2nd book about the , , , and the corruption I've witnessed and then I fully plan to focus on myself for a bit and on which I have been doing as much as I can.

I may write a book about bouncing back from , , coping with , , and living a driven life but that may take me a year or three. I'm in a bit of an uncertain point in my life. I think a lot of us are.

Whatever the future holds I know I did my best. I gave this my all. There are things we can and can't change in this world and we have to be able to accept that, roll with the punches, and move on.

03/13/2024

03/12/2024

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02/29/2024

02/26/2024

Feeling depressed, little anxious and just plain frustrated. My cousin helps pay my bills and he is like my only friend I kick it with. I really don't have anyone anymore. He's moving to Illinois to be closer to his brother and because he is worried about this new law that would criminalize disabled behaviors. So this bill that is the lead sponsor on will be the thing that removes my closest friend and support from underneath me. Nice. I hate her even more than I did before now.

02/26/2024

woke me up again. 2:30 AM ugh. Went to bed around 9. Guess thats 5 1/2 hours. I have tried therapy, medication, fighting back against my abusers and holding them accountable for their actions, working out and safety measure to make myself feel more safe and at ease.

Nothing works. Doesn't matter how safe I feel, if I put some white noise on, lucid dreaming noise or music take Prozasin or smoke w**d before bed I seem to be having them pretty regular now. They seem to repeat in similar horrific ways as if a timeline is playing out in dreamland.

The dysphoria it causes when I wake is confusing. The emotions overbearing. Waking up grasping for breath or screaming is not fun. This is what the does to and that get stuck in it. It destroys their brain and haunts them for life!

02/25/2024

My old is still facing after a couple dozen of us spoke out about the and we suffered while there at . It's now shutdown thanks to our relentless efforts putting it in the news, pressuring in , passing new to protect etc. I have about this place every night. I still have a messed up spine that hurts every day and trauma from being badly abused by

Agape Baptist Academy in Stockton billed itself as a boarding school for troubled youth.

02/02/2024

Well this sucks. I really am at a weird spot lately. Just got a letter stating my isn't by my ...even though I was assured it was. I took that rout because it takes months to get a and I need med management.

should really work on attracting more professionals here to . Going months without care, the process to find a counselor alone makes many quit. Honestly I don't know if I'm going to keep going. I should. I really need more help but its so frustrating not finding quality help or qualified help and I need a high level of psychiatric care. You give me just any counselor and I know as much ore more than them half the time from working in this field and on my own brain. Sigh.

01/29/2024

01/03/2024

Oof. There is no in . Thats for sure. Not for us of and . This is so infuriating and sad and why I've had to turn away from trying so hard to press for change in government even here in .

The court also said that negligence claims against a religious institution are (largely) barred by First Amendment.