04/10/2021
Nomusa
"I'm sorry my love " Jesus came back he saying sorry for something he did on purpose "sorry Shaka !is that all you can say after putting our life in danger ,after lieng to me for god knows how long" "
"Ngyxolisa thembalam bengithi ngenza okukahle for unndeni wam kodwa nivikekelekile ngyathembisa"(I'm sorry my love I thought I was doing what right for my family ,but you are all safe I promise")he says with no care
"How Shaka"to say am angry right now is an understandment
"Well all of you have body guides ,the kids ,mom ,dad , your family and you , nothing will happen to you or our kids I'll make sure of it " to think that all along they were people following me around without me knowing leave my little heart pounding
He tried convincing me to letting him be "so BBY how are you going to explain to the police the sudden richeness ,won't they start snopping around I don't want anything happening to you what will I say to our kids " i say fixing the pillow I'm lieng next to him in bed "that where you come in you will have to pay my fee in your salary , don't worry I will pay it back ,I will do a 2year degree business management or something so that I'll start my business and use it as a front " wow I guess he got everything covered then I fell asleep in his arms after discussing everything I needed to know about what he does. I'm happy that we won't be struggling that much in few years but I'm also scared for my kids what if something happens to them ,what if their fathers enemies use them to get something from him in the long run I'm really scared
The school are closed and I'm so happy that I will be seeing my kids I'm thinking of taking them to stay with me the following year but I will have to ask them first on how do they feel with moving back with me I know I'm always busy but I miss having them here with me. Being woken up by their loud noise ,those stolen quickies with their father because we can do it every where since they would be playing every where in the house
Its Friday and I'm waiting for shakes mom to get here with my rascals their sister will be coming tommorow late Ive prepared their favorite meal ,I also bought ice cream and other things kids like .when mom in-laws car finally pulls up outside I stand up walking to the car they get down running to my embrace I can't control the tears that leaves my eyes I missed them so much im such a bad mother how can a mother stay for this long without seeing her kids " mom why are you crying" I smile and kiss both their lips" mom is crying because he missed you guys so much "we missed you too Mom" they hug me again ,we had our bitter sweet moment then finally I remember that we ain't alone I stand up and greet mom in law "I'm very much good makoti ,anghleli bengilethe lamagundane nje ubaba akaphilile kahle " i smile "ngyezwa ma ,awsangeni uphuze netiye nje"(won't you even drink tea)"I would love to but I really have to go "
"Ohh ok then maa,let me not keep you ,I'll call you I really needed to talk to you about something"
Ohh hay we can talk makoti it's not like he is doing " he say that laughing "ohk let get inside"
We settle down in the dinner table and start dishing up for everyone after we finished eating I take the dishing to the kitchen "mom I was thinking of taking the kids to come and stay with me from next year, you can't be taking care of them and Grandpa you also need some rest " she start tearing up "mtanami ngyacela ungabathathi ,they are all that I have since their father doesn't visit me anymore I get bored I'll let them visit every weekend if that what you want but you can't take them away from me "I sigh ,she is so attached to my kids now "its okay maa they will visit on weekends but not every weekend the drive from your house coming here is not a short one I understand" I say smelling at her ,she thanks me and go
I really need my kids back maybe I should just get another mini us